Her Beauty Unmatched

finally

2009-02-12T21:33:36Z

i finally got my own house.

well i have roomates buts its fucking amazing, i have a 4 bedroom 2500 square foot house

i just had to share

ITS BEEN AWHILE

2009-01-19T03:58:21Z

SO I HAVENT BEEN ON HERE IN A LONG TIME.....

WELL MY LIFE IS FINALLY ON TRACK

I FOUND OUT WHO MY REAL FRIENDS ARE AND IM GRATEFUL

IM MOVING INTO A 4 BEDROOM HOUSE WITH 3 OF MY FAVORITE GUYS, RYAN WAGNER, RYAN BREWER, AND KEITH

I HAVE AN AMAZING JOB

I NEVER THOUGHT MY LIFE COULD BE DRAMAFREE AND IT FINALLY IS

ONLY THING I WOULD LIKE IS A STEADY BOYFRIEND BUT I DONT NEED ONE. THAT NICE TO FINALLY BE ABLE TO SAY

amor_propre @ 2007-10-22T18:18:00

2007-10-23T01:23:04Z

so since ive been home everything is going great.....

a month sober

and i get this random text message from an old friend

jessie joneson (yes the bassist of fletch) and he tells me he's like me since my freshman year and its cute haha we talk everyday until he get home from tour im such a nerd

well see what happens

halloween party saturday THO im stoked

amor_propre @ 2007-09-25T17:01:00

2007-09-26T00:02:47Z

im leaving to howe michigan......

i'll be gone for a month or a month and half

i need to leave my life needs to change

so i havent written in awhile

2007-04-26T18:55:38Z

let see whats going on in my life.....

Lots....

Ive been working on my tattoos i have 10 of them now.......

I finally dropped Willy outta my life for good.......Sounds crazy I know

Im sort of seeing this guy from back in the day.......My old piercer Andy....

Wierd....

Im actually pretty content with my life there are always a couple things i would change but that is so with everyones life......

Thats all for now

tonight

2006-12-21T08:17:56Z

So tonight i went to my first show at leathernecks.......I walk in and Willy and his girlfriend were there. I was getting stared down......he then proceeded to leave and his friend told me it was cuz i was there. and i think his girlfriend was trying to call me out......but other than that me and eric made buddybuddy. interesting

amor_propre @ 2006-10-30T14:14:00

2006-10-30T22:14:34Z

I'm dating a rockstar hahaha...more later

amor_propre @ 2006-10-19T16:56:00

2006-10-19T23:57:36Z

so im now done drinking.....im gonna go get help for my problem......i have no idea what happened last night but my face hurts.....Ewwww

fuck boys

2006-10-16T21:20:31Z

I'm so tired of everyones bullshit......First it's willy...Oh nichole i love you and i'm gonna break up with jaime she's crazy, we are still gonna get mariied.....Bullshit....I'm just there so he has someone who doesnt look like a guy to sleep with............Then there is melvin...I dont talk to him for a month then randomly i get an im nichole why are you being this way....i miss you....you were a great girlfriend you did everything right....wanna go to dinner...we are gonna take this one step at a time....and by that he meant when i have no one else i'm gonna call you and i'll drunk text you with stupid random ass shit...then there is jeremy he is just crazy oh i think i'm in love with you after only knowing you two weeks......

I'm over it all....I dont need/want a guy in my life.....i'm over the games.

amor_propre @ 2006-10-15T10:55:00

2006-10-15T17:58:15Z

tattoo tomarrow........i'll finally have it Done.......And I'll be rid of him.....Yes FUCK YOU WILLY!!!!!

amor_propre @ 2006-10-07T23:51:00

2006-10-08T06:53:29Z

once again i was used by willy......i need to not talk to him after my tat gets colored its over.....im fucking stupid......i need to punch myself in the face.....

amor_propre @ 2006-09-14T04:04:00

2006-09-14T11:03:56Z

i drink way too damn much......

amor_propre @ 2006-09-05T14:56:00

2006-09-05T21:58:09Z

SO I'VE BEEN CLEANING OUT MY MAILBOX AND READ OLD MESSAGES....

HERE ARE SOME FUNNY ONES FROM WILLY

it's not that I want to throw it away.....but I told you to choose, and you chose.....and although it might be my fault, I can't just sit around and wait for you while I become more and more miserable with each day......I love you and I always will, but I don't know what to do.....maybe in a while when we're both single(if that ever happens, since we're both pretty damn good looking <3) we can give it another go.....but until then, I guess I'll see you in my dreams

awwwww......
I'll love you until my soul runs out and there's nothing left but vacancy and distance.....until the world ends and heaven burns.....until forever turns to never and right turns to wrong and space is as empty as the promises we broke

I fucking love you lover face......
so love or leave, put up or shut up, forgive me or curse me, kiss me or kill me

"thoughts before sleep"

so I know your're out with him
and yeah he's probably really great
but don't you remember...
oh fuck, I never was that good
at being right for you
there's things that you just never could forgive
it's time I said goodbye
can't make up for what I did

I'm breaking over now
like waves are crashing constantly on me
saw you the other day
your eye's told me the battle had been won
the queen up on her throne
your smile said that you were better off
I tried to find my way
but it's hard to see the path when you are lost

but I'm waking up, figuring out
of what I want and what's allowed
you're vindicated in your actions
and I am just regret

I saw the power in your eyes
the crown we've passed around for years
you're so much prettier
when you're sure that you're better than me
been breathing less of late
these days are like a box, I'm trapped inside
and my dreams are filled with you
so lately, it just seems like I have died

knuckles are bleeding now
from punching at the ghost inside my head
the voice is louder
like the volume gets turned up with every blow
it's telling me I've lost
but I've never lost a thing without a fight
or should I just give up?
it's hard to turn away from what feels right

well I'm waking up, figuring out
of what I want and what's allowed
you're vindicated in your actions
and I am just regret

You want to know what I want? I want you to be happy. I want you to smile and laugh every day

I'm glad to hear you're happy now, and I'm sorry I'm such a fuck up. I wrote you these letters while I was in jail, saying stupid shit like how sorry I am and how you have every right to hate me....I wrote a lot of them and in one I actually asked you to marry me, but when I realized how selfish all that was I threw the letters away.

YOU KNOW WHAT I THINK OF ALL THIS.......BULLSHIT......

bullshit

2006-08-31T04:36:49Z

so me and melvin have been hardcore fighting.....and he had the nerve to say something about my drinking all the time......he has to smoke weed everyday to stay sane. how is that different then me drinking to be happier......

Well last night was crazy i got so drunk and i really dont remember much.....All i remember is talking to my myspace stalker.....haha

RIP Justin

2006-08-22T16:58:24Z

So i just found out my cousin old neighbor who i dated in like 6th grade died. he had an asthma attack in pahrump and the flight for life people couldnt get him to a hospital in time.

I remember every year when i was younger going to my cousins house for 4th of july and hanging out with him. and i used to always get allready even if i was only going over there for a minute. our first date we went and saw armageddon in the theatres. its crazy to think about all that stuff.

RIP Justin. My thoughts and prayers are with his family.

***EDIT***

I was at work and get a phone call that my mom had an asthma attack and is on a ventalator. I get to the hospital the have her arms straped to the bed post. It was one of the scariest moments ive had ina long long time.

people

2006-08-15T03:55:40Z

I'm so tired of people. They all are starting to suck ass. You got your Fakes, flakes, people who try to be someone else (which i know that is consider fake), rudeness, liars, just all around disgusting people. Oh well what can you do.

amor_propre @ 2006-07-29T14:35:00

2006-07-29T22:06:41Z

FOREVER AND A DAY- SILVERSTEIN

I thought we'd be together forever.
But it seems I was wrong and everything's fallen apart.
Think of what I've done for you.
Think of all that we've been through.
I hope every time he breaks your heart
you think of me and how I was to you.
Everything's fallen apart.
One day you'll see just how good I was.
And I thought that we'd be together forever.

This describes how i felt. But its over and it'll be ok. I hope....

this is what happens when myspace is down

2006-07-24T10:47:10Z

1) Using band names, spell out your first name:

N- New Amsterdams
I- It dies today
C- Cursive
H- hellogoodbye
O- Ozma
L- Lit
E- Emery

2) Have you ever had a song written about you? yeah
3) What song makes you cry? Amazed-lonestar
4) What song makes you happy? beating hearts baby- head automatica
5) What do you like to listen to before bed? my ipod on shuffle
6) Name a song by Coal Chamber: WHO?

7) Who was/were your idols when you were younger? SPICE GIRLs
8) First album you ever bought? uh i don't remember
9) Name a song that reminds you of someone and why: take it easy love nothing- bright eyes. its our song

a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 5'1
HAIR COLOR: Brown/blonde
SKIN COLOR: tan
EYE COLOR: hazel
PIERCINGS: ears, nose,lip, belly button, nape
TATTOOS: one on my leg

r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: pink indies

WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: the tv

WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: uhhh spit

WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: haven't been outside yet

HOW ARE YOU? bored

d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: alittle if i read in the car
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: plenty
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?:yea
LIKE TO DRIVE?: yea

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: law and order svu
CONDITIONER: redkin
BOOK: unspeakable
MAGAZINE: cosmo
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: strawberry soda
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: cranberry and vodka
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: working
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: bright eyes

h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: yes
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: no.
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: yes
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: yes.
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: Yes
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: ni
DIDNT YOU KNOW THATS THE NEW COOL THING TO DO? really????
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: no. i would never
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: yea
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: haha yeah
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: haha yeah i was santa claus
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: haha yeah

l o v e
BOYFRIEND: no
GIRLFRIEND: no
SEXUALITY: im straight
CHILDREN: one day
CURRENT CRUSH: Willy
BEEN IN LOVE?: yes
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: yeah
BEEN HURT?: yes
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: lossing him
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: maybe?

r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: yes
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: no cd player ipod
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: hot pink
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: when everyone likes me
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: willy
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: who knows
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: christina, broceny, katie
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: drink

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: i dunno
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: acouple days ago bills
YOU GOT E-MAIL: who emails anymore. myspace duh
THING YOU PURCHASED: drinks
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: csi
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: xmen 3

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
ABORTION: its your body do whatever
TEENAGE SMOKING: whatever
SPICE GIRLS: funny
DREAMS: crazy

because myspace isdown

which bright eyes' song are you?

you're "haligh, haligh, a lie, haligh". you just found out that your significant other is cheating on you. haha that SUCKS.. go look in the mirror and contemplate suicide, then i dunno, cry or something.
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yes

2006-07-11T03:50:07Z

I'm single once again guys watch out.

Fuck Off

2006-06-22T18:45:03Z

DEAR MELVIN,

If I wanted to feel like shit all the time I'd still be dating Willy. He did it alot better than you.

LOVE,

NICHOLE

Right now......

2006-06-18T07:14:30Z

I really hope i dont wake upin the morning.

END...

amor_propre @ 2006-05-23T13:23:00

2006-05-23T20:23:15Z

Right now I'm pretty happy. I have the greatest boyfriend. I look forward to seeing him everyday. Like right now I miss his face. The only thing in life I need is a car. From now on that is gonna be my top thing. I havent been feeling bad about myself and I love it. He makes me so happy.

***EDIT***

His mom hates me and is trying to set him up with someone else. DAMN JOESPH WILLIAM HODGE!!!!!!

new hair bitches!!!!!

2006-05-19T21:05:30Z

new hair for sure.....

RANDOM PICTURES

2006-05-10T20:47:22Z

Fuck Off

2006-04-27T06:35:25Z

I'm sick of everyone!!!! I dont want to talk to anyone.The only good friend i have is christina everyone else can fuck off. I'm going into hiding peace out.