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SO I'VE BEEN CLEANING OUT MY MAILBOX AND READ OLD MESSAGES....

HERE ARE SOME FUNNY ONES FROM WILLY

it's not that I want to throw it away.....but I told you to choose, and you chose.....and although it might be my fault, I can't just sit around and wait for you while I become more and more miserable with each day......I love you and I always will, but I don't know what to do.....maybe in a while when we're both single(if that ever happens, since we're both pretty damn good looking <3) we can give it another go.....but until then, I guess I'll see you in my dreams

awwwww......
I'll love you until my soul runs out and there's nothing left but vacancy and distance.....until the world ends and heaven burns.....until forever turns to never and right turns to wrong and space is as empty as the promises we broke

I fucking love you lover face......
so love or leave, put up or shut up, forgive me or curse me, kiss me or kill me

 "thoughts before sleep"

so I know your're out with him
and yeah he's probably really great
but don't you remember...
oh fuck, I never was that good
at being right for you
there's things that you just never could forgive
it's time I said goodbye
can't make up for what I did

I'm breaking over now
like waves are crashing constantly on me
saw you the other day
your eye's told me the battle had been won
the queen up on her throne
your smile said that you were better off
I tried to find my way
but it's hard to see the path when you are lost

but I'm waking up, figuring out
of what I want and what's allowed
you're vindicated in your actions
and I am just regret

I saw the power in your eyes
the crown we've passed around for years
you're so much prettier
when you're sure that you're better than me
been breathing less of late
these days are like a box, I'm trapped inside
and my dreams are filled with you
so lately, it just seems like I have died

knuckles are bleeding now
from punching at the ghost inside my head
the voice is louder
like the volume gets turned up with every blow
it's telling me I've lost
but I've never lost a thing without a fight
or should I just give up?
it's hard to turn away from what feels right

well I'm waking up, figuring out
of what I want and what's allowed
you're vindicated in your actions
and I am just regret

You want to know what I want? I want you to be happy. I want you to smile and laugh every day

I'm glad to hear you're happy now, and I'm sorry I'm such a fuck up. I wrote you these letters while I was in jail, saying stupid shit like how sorry I am and how you have every right to hate me....I wrote a lot of them and in one I actually asked you to marry me, but when I realized how selfish all that was I threw the letters away.

YOU KNOW WHAT I THINK OF ALL THIS.......BULLSHIT......